JULY 22, 2021

Sorry, I am so amazed by this video that I have to tell someone about it lol.

It's a video about a pilot debunking absolutely horrible plane survival "tips" on Tik Tok (god I hate tik tok with a passion for many other reasons as well). Here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ltOkMlHrGPc

I'm just completely dumbfounded by the people spreading misinformation like it's true! I don't understand what the person's goal is by misleading people. Are you mad? Is it paranoia, delusions, or something? I mean, I'm completely floored by these tik tok videos, but I also want to learn about the psychology behind people willingly spreading misinformation. I just want to know... why.

Anyways, that's it. lol.

JUNE 28, 2021

Things have been pretty good. I'm a little nervous about that lol, but I know it's a good thing.

Fursuit is being made, relationship with the bf is going well so far, and I'm back at my old job.

I'm fucking scared lol. I know god is going to do something to ruin it all and I'm waiting for that day. But I suppose I'll enjoy the happiness that I have right now.

Ugh, I hate being depressed. I never want to be depressed again.

PS: Streaming set up is up and running! Streaming games is a go! I'm so happy. Though I have to remove the HypMic albums from the background music. Fucking copyright claimed, uuggghhh.... Man, I want to add so much music to my stream but NOPE, god damn copyright claim. At least there's video game music I guess. Anyways, yeah stream is workin.

JUNE 24, 2021

Grandma and I got a new dog! Her name is Hattie and she is baby. I love her so much! This will be our first night together, so we'll see how she behaves. I'm just so happy we have her and that she has a forever home now.

Some of the fursuit materials should delivered tomorrow. I can't wait to start building the fursuit; I think it's going to be really fun.

Uh... that's it. Life seems to be doing pretty well so far. Don't get me wrong, I still have my moments, but the medication has definitely made each day more bearable. I hope things get even better with time.


PS: I forgot, I have a job interview tomorrow. I'm not really looking forward to it though. Not that I don't think the interview will go well, but I'm not sure if I'll actually get hired. I've had my fair share of great interviews and then the manager decided not to hire me for some reason so... yeah. Job interviews suck. Getting a job sucks. I hate it.

But I'll do my best I guess, even if it might not go anywhere.

JUNE 23, 2021

I'm going to make my first fursuit with the help of a friend. I'm nervous but I'm also pretty excited for it. Already bought some of the materials and we're gonna shop for the rest of material this weekend.

Oh boy, this is going to be crazy, but I also feel like it's going to be a lot of fun.

JUNE 22, 2021

Decided to make N1NEZ design more like how I dress in real life. I mean, I already have a techwear character (Nyx) and I need some variety I guess. xD

Too bad there's not a lot clothing in booth.pm. I guess I'll have to learn how to make my own clothes.

JUNE 21, 2021

Hey there. I should probably get back to building my web pages, but instead, I've been setting up my stream. :U I got the capture card but it's kind of... questionable, so I got to see if it works.

Here's what the stream layout looks like: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U2XOlYigzdE

It's very barebones... And I like it.

There is one problem though... I want to change my avatar's hair so bad. lol.

JUNE 20, 2021

Made a vtuber oc in Vroid. Their name is N1NES (yes, named after Nines from NieR Automata). Also waiting on my capture card. I am excited! I hope I can stream PS4 games. If not, then art streams (and maybe phone games) I guess. xD Here is N1NES:

JUNE 7, 2021

Diagnosis changed from Schizoaffective Disorder to DID. Also going to get tested for ADD/ADHD.

MAY 31, 2021

I hate going to bed. I hate going to bed so much.

MAY 30, 2021

I have short hair. I want long hair. Right now. So, I bought myself a wig. It's an emo/scene style wig (chosen by my bf) and I love it. Honestly, I think I'm going to live off of wigs at this point. Keep my actual hair short and wear wigs with whatever style I want. That sounds a lot more convenient than handling my thick-ass, curly hair and having to get a perm to straighten it and shit. And then the upkeep to keep the hair straightened and... *sigh* Yeah, I've had a lot of perms back in my day. Not that the upkeep was difficult or anything but... the whole perming process is... ugh... And then after a while, the hair gets curly again and you got to perm the hair... AGAIN. I'm just done with that. lol.

Anyways, bought a wig and I'm happy with it. Gonna buy s'more wigs in the future.

MAY 29, 2021

I had started teaching myself music theory and then stopped. I should pick it up again.

MAY 20, 2021

Pericarditis flare up again. Enjoy the hell out of Nier Automata again though.